“Evolution process involves eradication of whats not Serving you anymore and replace with something or better”.
After a very long time, I took back to writing thanks to lockdown as it really helped to reconnect with my own self and finally I am here to express it.
Writers block often come to us in forms that we least expect it to be, it can be due to other priorities which includes family commitments, work commitment.
Commitment is a very big word in itself, committing ourselves to a task, assignment, relationship not just needs constant efforts but also lot of patience, empathy and compassion.
There will be times when we might get frustrated , irritated due to similar set of things, like i get irritated with routine life and routine kind of tasks.
I look for adventure in every single day. Vanilla is good but a bit of butter scotch, chocochip chocolate icecream trial once in a while is good to know what suits your taste buds.
So, when the GOI announced lockdown, frankly speaking it didnt matter at first for me because somewhere I am accustomed to staying indoors since last 3 yrs. I lived an extrovert life throughout my school, college , when I was working in Bangalore.
I was so accustomised with meeting friends, making new friends and I truly cherish and feel great about it because my networking skills got enhanced. But even when I had so many people around and being a talkative soul somewhere something were missing .
I wasn’t getting the answers to my questions , my curious mind always was seeking for more knowledge and new things. As years passed, I evolved and changed as a person . I grew up to be a better person everyday . I started seeking answers from within than seeking and validating all of them from outside via others views and opinion
Earlier most of the time I accepted myself to be what people use to project /expected me to be which was basis there share of life experiences and knowledge.
If i tried to rectify or correct them of for the ways they feel is only right.
I saw “RIGIDITY ” & Give back attitude
Everyone of us feels we are great and any change comes the first reaction is self defence, as deep down we feel someone is trying to bring us down or criticise.
We do this often as a human reflex in ways which could boost our egos that we are safe.
Being in fear is the reason why we stay in the comfort zone and any new change comes as challenge for us because ” We fear failure”.
Post lock down announcement major challenge that came for me was
“Time Management”. This was tough between work, household chores and my personal time of conducting my workshops.
My passion has always been motivating people and try to help them in all forms that i could to bring in change in the world.
I was completely irritated and any additional task use to frustrate me to the core. I was not able to cope up with it at first and than one day I sat down to analyse where I was going wrong and I found the reason was my “fear of Failure”.
So, I have this issue since my teenage of being competitive. Though at times its needed but over a period of time excess of it also causes self harm only.
I always wanted to be “Perfectionist” in everything I do.
I dnt take up tasks where i feel i will fail or wont be good enough or get criticized by not meeting expectation of others.
I wanted to do tasks in the perfect manner and any imperfection will cause me embarrassment or I use to feel bad.
Self Criticism has been a major part of my personality as I grew up.
I always feel there is something missing and I never appreciated what I have or i did and the efforts i put forward at work I would rather focus more on what I didnt do/ could have done.
Lockdown taught me a BIG Lesson of Gratitude.
How to be grateful about everything around you and self appreciate yourself in tasks you do as that is the only way to self motivate yourself.
List of things I am grateful for :
1. My workplace, where they didnt do any layoff and kept all employees as priority amid the crisis happening in the global scenario.
2.I am grateful for the house I have where i am safe and comfortable and protected.
3. I am grateful for internet services and all essential commodity providers as it really helped us keeping in touch with the world outside in virtual form.
4. I am grateful to my maid that in her absence i realised the length and breadth of my house and also that if we want we can survive in a 1BHK house too.
5. I am grateful for my plants as I learnt to nurture them which i was not doing everyday and the pleasure seeing them grow.
6. I am grateful to my kitchen where i realised where I have so many things to cook, experiment and enhance my culinary skills. Cooking helped me in learning the art of patience and anything we try to take out before its fully cooked wont taste better.
Similar to any task , doing hustle and hurry bury before the fruit is ripe enough will cause only harm to us.
7. I am thankful to the health workers, sanitation people, police force,media personnel who are working hard on ground irrespective of the situation outside and doing there job in the best possible way. (A big BOW and Clap).
8. I am thankful to my friends, family ,colleagues, neighbours who really helped at time of need and speaking to each other really helped and also restored humanity exists even in turmoil.
These lessons of patience and gratitude really came up from Mother earth in a different way.
Also ,we learnt that having luxury and money and power cnt help you every time in any manner. Universe reciprocate to us in ways to make us adaptable and flexible in order to accept changes and also be thankful for the change as it made us mentally, emotionally,psychologically and physically strong.
I learnt time management in a better way now post all cribbing , anger burst now I decided to work through things in much efficient way and in ways flexible for me.
I would rather focus on my own self development and growth than rather focusing much on what other is capable off or what I lack.
I rather would prefer to work through things to make myself strong and better so any tempest comes in future I can deal with it with immense patience, gratitude and being assertive.Appreciate yourself for every task you do and be grateful for what you have.
STAY HOME, STAY SAFE & STAY POSITIVE (THIS TOO SHALL PASS).
